I thought of you today.
I’d rather not have since doing so meant a flood of emotions I was not to ready to process.
Why is it so hard to move away from that which is good but not intended to be?
Why is it so hard to shut down the heart when the brain and spirit know it’s never going to be?
I remembered the laughter and the fun times.
I thought of conversations, replaying them in my mind as tears ran down my cheeks.
I don’t want to think of you.
I want you to be happy and know that life is working out better than you expected.
I want you to find bliss and perfection and live a life of true abundance and joy.
But I don’t want to feel this way.
I hate remembering yesterday and how we were strangers making memories.
And knowing the ones we made changed my life but will only be another page in your book.